The room used to be quiet. dull. dead. But a figure walked into the room and excitement, joy, light rushed in lk a stampede of American oxen. I was in total aghast till this strange figure came before me, felt my texture, went in depth with my worth and scrutinised me with complete admiration. How thrilled was I! Intoxicated with joy was I! I had grown so famliar, so accustomed to this sort of attention despite the short time span it had been. But no matter how delightlful it may seem, Good Fortune has shone her light dimly on me and before I could gather my consciousness together, Her candle has died out.

Am I like a painting? Painted but not to the colour of your desires? Painted but with a brush worth not more than a crow's feather? Displayed in the light but not in the midsts of million dollar artifacts but displayed in the dim light amongst the disposed lot?

Am I like a painting? Beautiful and inviting at first sight, but as the unforgiving minute passes, messes up your mind with abstract logic and labyrinth confusion? A painting different from many, unique in my own sense of creativity that has been lavished upon my paper that once used to be bleak, plain, dull. With every stroke of detail my Artist has brushed across my dress. but sadly, found appalling in your eyes in comparison to the painting you saw before me.

In my eyes, a painting nayy it is. It shone differently in the light, it seemed like a sculpture more than a painting in which you stood many seasons before to take in such deep consideration of its details. Its colours spoke to you, as though words were imprinted on its very texture. Its details stike your eyes and its refine finishing eventually captivated your heart. And there you stood before that painting, staring, admiring but woe to me, here i lay quietly hung, incapacitated, pondering on whether quiet sobs would do my colours any good after seeing where you chose to stand. To see you smile and glow in such boyish joy in its very presence.

Should I be in glee by the fact that he has actually spent a good 5 minutes looking at me and choose to not despair at the fact that he had the intention of purchasing her? how lucky she is to have someone to admire her all day and night. To willingly flash out the millions for her capture. What choice do I have but to keep still and silent as you walk out that door, with that painting in your hands. And once again the museum is quiet. And it kills me.

hello whoever who is reading this pathetic blog of minee.. =) nothing much has happened in school except for lots of duties, homework, laughters and teases. but that's what makes form 6 so memorable.

went for badminton with jason, xian and their friends for the past weeks and it was definitely fun! looking forward to playing badminton again despite being a really pathetic player who cant even smash! oh heavens isit really THAT hard to focus all my energy in one hit? im trying really hard to figure out the factors why i cant smash. hmmmm is it cause of my height? no... pooh bear could do it. D: it shall forever remain a mystery to me.

went for badminton with EDWINA, yan wei and herrbie.. it's been SOOO the long since i saw them and they never change.. except for yan who became SUPER talkative goodness knows what happened to him during his schooling days in form6. D: and the two buddies will forever be melodramatic ppl. i miss them to the core seriously!

XAVERIAN RAYA!
it was fun la wei! seriously, there was so much FOOD and FUN and LAUGHTER and thank you KEVIN, WEI CHIEN, WEN XIAN, JASON, SAMMY WAMMY, DENISE, MING YEN and EDDIE for coming for the party. i was glad that there was MORE than enough food to go around and that you all enjoyed the meal. somehow i felt snuggles was the main character of the whole party. @_@ hmmmm.........




after the party, i felt this pang of realisation. that i'm gona miss that day like crazy. it feels almost like regret but there's no need for the feeling of regret and yet it feels like fear of losing something yet there's no need for such fret and it feels somewhat like peace and gratitude for knowing that i have met such friends in my life who will always make in difference in the Jolene i am today and the Jolene i will be tomorrow. =)

school will be starting the day after tomoro and i've yet to get my gears going. T.T oh what doom.

JOLENEEEEsam

exams are oveeeeer.
i'm really really disappointed with how i did for my exams. =( it could've been better.
but thank you SOTONG for your terribly hillarious joke book. really did bring smiles to my face. =D

i just realised that i have issues with cats. yes cats. anything to do with cats. anybody and anything to do with cats. cats and me just dont go well together. from the beginning of time till now. why la why.. >( aihhh....
and did you know... that...
i really dont like the after-exams-phase. i seriously so sesat now, dont knw whether to sleep or to study or to indulge myself in a book or to watch tv or to go online or to bake or to sit here and be lost on blogspot and fb. hohoho.

i've got econs ttn in an hrs time. atleast i wont be sesat for the night. xD

-Joleneeesam-

abt 3 weeks has passed since the BOD election.
i didn't get the post i ran for. oh well, in my point of view, nobody lost in the whole fiasco. everyone was a winner, the very fact that we were nominated proves it. the thing is, who is the winner among the winners, and they are the current council. =D GOOD LUCK and HAVE FUN ALL ! =D the very experience is already enlightening enough and i believe there's a reason for everything... in God's due time, everything will be revealed.. in God's due time. ^^

TESTS ARE TOMORROW! pls dont ask me why i'm online blogging to my heart's delight. my brain was officially murdered. the CSI came and analysed the scenario.. it was murdered brutally by economics, accs, general paper and BUSINESS STUDIES. D:

my phone is dying. it's taking it's last breath. boo hoo hooo. anyone generous enough to sponsor me a phone pls? ><

my weeks in school since the election was hectic! fun! and it got even better when i met two NUTTY WHACKY ANIMALS. a bambi and a bear. xD ahahhaha!

-JoleneeeSAM!-

it has already been about 2 months since i entered form 6. still alive, amazingly with all the cocuriculum activities, ttns and school to jumble with. i really wish there were 48 hours in a day. T.T
alot has happened.
if i were to wrap it all up in a nutshell, it'll sound kinda messy.

here it goes.
i've made new friends.
i've entered the BOP.
i've attended BOD OC after going thru the tormenting interview.
i FREAKING ENJOYED BOD regardless of me being panda eyed.
i enjoyed helping out with VAD exhibition.

bonded with new friends.
attached to new friends.
and those new friends out of the many new friends had to leave.
to where?

for matriculation.

and so because of them, i've been really preoccupied for the last week. out almost everyday for their never ending farewells. haha. really enjoyed my time with them.
almost died cause of some car issues but hey im still here blogging, so it aint all THAT bad. =D
they're leaving for good this weekend.

how i'm feeling now?
let me briefly decode it for you.
i'm currently happy cause i ate lala for lunch.
i'm currently excited for tomoro's voting. MAY THE BEST NOMINEE WIN!
i;m currently sad at the thought of THEM leaving.
i'm currently panicky about VAD OC preparation.
i'm currently blur cause i lack sleep. LOL.

even i cant cant decode all. gawsh.

Hi I'm back. after 2 months of disappearing from the face of the earth. lol. I'm really bored that's why im blogging, otherwise, i would be doing something else. =D Just a rough summary about what has been going on in my oh-so-absurdly-boring life.

for starters, Form 6 has started for me. hmm, hw do i summarise f6 huh. it's fun. honestly, it is. Maybe cause the school's great OR my classmates are awesome. I'd prefer to stick to option two. lol. anyways, school has been going on for about a month now, and our first class party was held last friday, the friday b4 this forsaken busy holiday started. T.T It was really funn. ignoring the fact that we had too much leftovers and everyone almost got an overdose of carbon dioxide from all the carbonated drinks. tsk tsk. games was interesting; musical chairs and charade. nono im not being sarcastic ! it really was fun ! haha!

moving on to my holidays. i have been busy every single day till today. and i will continue to be busy until it's over. went out to gurney to watch prince of persia ystd with classmates namely... william, chye hee, wooi leng, wei chien and nel, and also my BEST BUDS; Edwina and Ming Yen! hmm Sam Tan was there too. =D

after movie was econs ttn. wooot.

no pics.
camera HAD NO BATTS. -.-

ahem. and that's about all. told you my life is sad. lol.

today ended with a disastrous 'PIANNGG'

I finished baking ma P.E.T.s, cleaned up.
everything was FINISHED and I left the kitchen, reached for the light switch and

PIAAANG

My hand accidentally hit the vodka bottle that was sitting in some fat chef's hand and it fell with a crash that simply said...

'there goes the vodka ma mum brought back from Russia. woe to me, i just wasted money just like that. -.-'

though my parents say 'it's ohkay'.
i still feel like crap. i know i know, i'm like 18 for goodness sake, but i can't help feeling so stupid and idiotically careless. ughhhhh.

and i got glass splinters all over ma hands and knees. And ouch, ma finger is bleeding.

'Woe to me'

JoleneeeSam