In this lil' mind of mine.

I'm sorry .

Friday, July 24, 20093:33 AM

i think i've made the second biggest mistake in my life.
and it is similar to the first biggest mistake in my life.
so in CONCLUSION

i never learn my lesson. T_T

and does anyone know why on earth some people have this aura that FORCES you to spill out secrets WILLINGLY ? T____T

this week has been an emotionally-unstable week. test was horrid and so is my social life. i'm sorry for making the wrong choices and decisions, causing the people around me to feel like they're burning in hell. i'm sorry for not being a better friend, being a better dad. but i really do not intend to hurt anyone nor cause any harm to those i love most; my sissy family. i know that some of you are disappointed in me, angry and frustrated with my cursed attitude and playfullness and if i have hurt anyone one of you..
i'm sorry.
i really don't mean to.
all in all, i still love you guys more than anything else.

Joleneee <(

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lalalalala.

Sunday, July 19, 20097:14 AM

a million apologies evryone for not updating by blog.

went for a spelling competition with saucheng, denise and wei cyn. acted like geeks for the whole day ! spelling words that we will NEVER use in our entire lifetime. and i hate the word heiment. and that lady for not knowing how to pronounce H with a H sound. =___=" and this guy, lalafung, who thinks he knows evrything.. ate his own dust.

pls visit saucheng's or denise's or wei cyn's blog for more info. xD tq.

i've got a free guitar ! and it is definitely a blessing from God. in the afternoon i prayed to God for a guitar because i wanted to improve myself futher when it comes to praise and worship .. since my bro took the guitar to KL. <( and i went over to dad's friend's house in the evening, Uncle C. told me that he doesn use his guitar anymore and so i just bluntly asked, " Do you intend to sell it? @_@" haha, he GAVE it to me. like.. WOOOOT?

SHAAM WOOHOOO !! XD

and i have a meddled-messed up heart because of a msg i recieved on saturday night. haha, no regrets tho. *winks

KEVIN SAM THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH ME GAMING ALRIGHT ! ><

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SHAM WOOHOOO !

Wednesday, July 8, 20093:40 AM

it's a YELLOW CAR!!
like duhhh does it look like a red car to you? =___=

i do not know when or how or what made me so crazy over cars. especially those FREAKING COOL YELLOW CARS ! jsladhf;lsah the beauty these cars behold are just... indescribable. =/

if you're thinking ' since she's so crazy over cars, does she knw abt the kinds of oil, hood to boot, car models and etc?' the answer is, NO. i'm not crazy over cars till i buy car magazines and speak in car jargon to any Tom Dick or Harry on the streets. i don't even know what gears are. i know two internal things, breaks and accelerate. and come on laaa it's in MATHS for crying out loud...o.O...i just like cars for what they are.

and i ADORE cars with those giaaaaaant bazookas jutting out from the its sides! and cars that destruct the environment with whatever special advantages the car is known for or bash up other cars to SCRAPS ! like *BIIIISH* with its giant bombs and road spikes or or.... and noooooo, i HATE army tanks.

because it is
1) big
2) ugly
3) ugly
4) very ugly
5) and dull

When i was a much younger kid, my all-time favourite game was TWISTED METAL on the PS. i have like the whole SERIES of it. my bro and me would just enjoy choosing those effing cool cars with all those bulky weapons protruding out from all four corners and bashing each other into pulp ! BIG FOOTS ARE MASSIVELY HUGE AND WICKED! bro always liked 'Jumper'. pink car.. petite BUT light.
and he always bishes me into pulp. T__T

Burn Out is also one of the recent games i play on the PSP. KEVIN SAM DON'T YOU DARE LAUGH AT THIS STATEMENT! it's great for just stressing out all the crap school gives you at the end of the day. I usually rampage, cause racing isn't one of my best abilities. crashing cars and seeing them fly in the air... ahhhhh... bliss. xD

my bro must be thinking ' my sis is weird..'

IT'S DEATH RACE CARS PEOPLE !!!

a few months back, my bro invited me to watch 'Death Race' with him. i was like,' Hami hi lai? o.O....' manatau.. watch just 1/10 of the show i was like jumping up and down and screaming and laughing and being HIGH ! my bro was like ' oh.. ohhh.... she's gone craaaaaazyyyyy T__T' DEATH RACE IS BY FAR THE MOST GORRY, THRILLING AND KID-EXHILARATING MOVIE EVER ! and yes, i'm a kid. you got a prob with that? =__="
basically it's about cars racing each other KILLING their opponents with their own customed MONSTER CARS with FREAKING HUMONGOUS GUNS and SPIKES and BLADES !and the cool part is that the racing track has these base pads that enable the cars to have special powers.. or in a less lame way or saying it.. 'abilities'. = ) the trick is, the cars must have ALL FOUR WHEELS on the pad to activate the ability. I LOVE THAT PART THE MOST ! it's like.... WOW WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT OF THAT???? xDDD there are a few rounds and drivers are eliminated. permanently. SO COOL ! those monster trucks make my
blood go ' SHAM WOOHOOO !' XD

what about drifting and all those fancy car tricks?two words. LOVE THEM ! It makes me go all ' omg !!' and 'woaaaaaahhhh' and 'OH MOMMA !'

i do NOT know why i'm crapping all this but i guessNOW you know a bit more about me.
and warning. don't you ppl come to me speaking in car jargon cause i'll seriously tie you to a bamboo stick and shoot you to Mars. =____="

JoLeneee <3

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just so you know !

Friday, July 3, 20093:37 AM

boring.
my blog is boring.
i know it's boring because i don't gossip about boys .. or girls for that matter openly for the entire cyber world to read.
i know it's not the perfect girly webpage adorned with pictures of cute lil dresses that makes some girls go ' OMGGG THAT DRESS IS SO CUTE !'
i know it's kinda dull because i talk superficially of the issues around me.
i know it's weird for some of you to keep seeing the word ' God God GOD' repeated like a million times in just two posts.

but you see, when someone asks me, 'what is the purpose of you blogging?'
i'll just say 'to share with people about what God has done in my life'.
it's all for God. not for me myself and I.

yes it's true that there are some random posts about my compulsive spending disorder and about some almost-hillarious moments in my life that has got nothing to do with religion or whatsoever, BUT majority of the posts are for God.
in the beginning, i was thinking of making my blog something like a train of thoughts been typed out 'in this lil mind of mine'. however, as time passes.... all that's in my mind is God.

BOOOOORRRIIIIIIING !
yea yea i know, sam is so noisy, so loud and so crazy and here she is trying to be some priestest from Jerusalem on her BLOG for crying out loud !
i'm sorry guys, there's a limit to evrything. and being too crazy, ain't all that good either, ya know? = )
i don't think that i'm the kind who would harp one a bunch of cute guys for ages telling the whole world i like them. because to be frank, haha, most of the guys i have liked so far are far from being ... good looking. let's just say, i'm blind to such things. = ) and i'm sure you guys wouldn;t be interested in reading about non-good looking guys right? haha ! isn't that right, Rach? LOL !
clothes. ohkay i like clothes but not obsessed over them. a few decent pieces here and there... yea and in the end it's the same. shirt and jeans. so, really, what's there to talk about clothes? o.O" maybe there's a rare occasion when i talk about dresses and such.. be patient till then. i know some of you girls are boo-ing me till your guts have spilled out but, that's just me, Samjo. = )

ohkay
if you reaaaaaally know me, you would understand that i'm not that kind of girl that likes to hang about shopping complexes looking absolutely glamorous, fussing about the 1 kg i gain during the holidays or going all day about cute boys. YES i DO talk about boys. but not in the infatuated sort of manner. and even if i do, it wouldn't last all day.
anyway, if you really know me, you would understand that i am a child of God who would like to dedicate this blog to God as much as possible !

'God again' you may think.
haha.
bear with me really, cause that's why i'm having this blog.

Joleneee <3

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Public Speaking ! <3

2:53 AM

once again, hi evryone !

it has been a terribly busy week for me so i've finally got the chance to sit my butt down at the comp and post something to keep my almost-dying-blog from dying. = )

tho, it's still dying =(

anyway, a miracle happened to me this week. the biggest, most amazing, unbelievable miracle happened !
as some of you know, i was in for public speaking and i HATED IT !
i was lamenting about it for two weeks. TWO WEEKS NON-STOP! =__=
the competition was last wednesday.

to cut the long story short, i tried to get sick. i really reaaaaally tried to get sick and i ALMOST DID. why get sick? well because i wanted to RUN AWAY FROM THE DREADFUL PUBLIC SPEAKING COMPETITION, THAT'S WHY. but, my dad got sooo worried, he took me to a doctor, got me some antibiotics and GAH, i got well. I just HAD to get well 2 days before the competition which was monday and the wonderful part is that i did not memorize the script at all because i thought i would be SICK ! manatauuuu, my mom comes into the room and says ' God doesn't want you to run away from this you know, and he won't let you.'

freaky? not really... God had a plan for me. but i refused to see it. why else would i be cured? x (

i cried. i cried bitterly. i cried with anger, frustration and uncontrolled negative emotions. but after the tears, i felt much better. as though i cried out all the negativity out of my brains.
with a much distorted face from crying, i went out to my mom and said ' i'll try but i know i won't win because i seriously feel STUPID for agreeing to do this'. my mom comforted me and reminded me to pray.
prayer.
something i've never actually thought about.
so
i prayed and all my stupidity was wiped away with all the doubts. i can't explain how. it's as though it was never there! it was a monday night. i started reciting and reciting and memorizing and reciting and in TWO HOURS i memorized everything, SEASONED with confidence and ready to give my best
not for ME
not for MISS CHEE
not for my MOM
but for GOD!

i woke up on wednesday morning and prayed. on the way to school, i prayed. and God kinda told me ' why not be the first to go up the stage?'. i thought..." nahhhhh........that would be suicidal"
i went for prayer group and evryone prayed for me,Zhu and Rach.
i was late for drawing lots. and i got 14th. THE LAST. BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
pui yee came up to me and said the most SURPRISING THING to me that morning
pui yee : DAD AHH ! You wanna change number with me?
samjo : har? what number? o.O?
pui yee : *shows number* ONE !
samjo : OHKAY !!

without a second thought i said ohkay. without a second thought. i must've been CRAZY ! i was supposed to be shaking like a leaf but.. surprisingly... i didn't. i wasn't THAT nervous. =D and do you see the connection? God's calling to be first and in the end, i did get to be the first.

coincidence?
i don't think so.

i prayed and prayed until sissy SARAS called my name and i went up the stage. and i looked at the audience, my fellow colistrians. i froze. BUT again i heard God saying " don't be afraid. all these people look like tiny dots in blue. don't they?"
tiny dots
tiny dots
tiny dots
...............
HAHAH YAH THEY DO ! =D
so i carried on talking to the tiny blue dots and before i knew it, it was over. and i was
r.e.l.i.e.v.e.d.
impromptu.
terrible.
"NATIONAL SERVICE should be made COMPULSORY for all FITH FORMERS. What do you think?"
and i crapped about evrything and anything knowing i said something and not nothing.
*ting ting
i walked off the stage.

it was time to announce who the winners were and i walked to the back of the hall to sit with ED. knowing that i wouldn't get anything.
But guess what
i won third place.

@_@

and i'm glad that Ed was the first to hug me, congratulating me. ><

Congratz SAU CHENG and ZHU-EY for winning first and second placing ! you guys were AWESOME !!

THANK YOU KENNETH ! LK i said ILY so much for helping me with the script and for your fantastic catchy 'obama-phrases'! i got feedback that i sound very kenneth-ish up on stage ya know..... LOL. aren't you SO proooooud of me? =D

anyway, do you see the power of prayer? do you see how amazing God works? you may think that ' it's all just a mere coincidence...' but I SAY, NO ! it's real and it's God !

ILY GOD ! =DDD

Joleneee <3

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