once again, hi evryone !

it has been a terribly busy week for me so i've finally got the chance to sit my butt down at the comp and post something to keep my almost-dying-blog from dying. = )

tho, it's still dying =(

anyway, a miracle happened to me this week. the biggest, most amazing, unbelievable miracle happened !
as some of you know, i was in for public speaking and i HATED IT !
i was lamenting about it for two weeks. TWO WEEKS NON-STOP! =__=
the competition was last wednesday.

to cut the long story short, i tried to get sick. i really reaaaaally tried to get sick and i ALMOST DID. why get sick? well because i wanted to RUN AWAY FROM THE DREADFUL PUBLIC SPEAKING COMPETITION, THAT'S WHY. but, my dad got sooo worried, he took me to a doctor, got me some antibiotics and GAH, i got well. I just HAD to get well 2 days before the competition which was monday and the wonderful part is that i did not memorize the script at all because i thought i would be SICK ! manatauuuu, my mom comes into the room and says ' God doesn't want you to run away from this you know, and he won't let you.'

freaky? not really... God had a plan for me. but i refused to see it. why else would i be cured? x (

i cried. i cried bitterly. i cried with anger, frustration and uncontrolled negative emotions. but after the tears, i felt much better. as though i cried out all the negativity out of my brains.
with a much distorted face from crying, i went out to my mom and said ' i'll try but i know i won't win because i seriously feel STUPID for agreeing to do this'. my mom comforted me and reminded me to pray.
prayer.
something i've never actually thought about.
so
i prayed and all my stupidity was wiped away with all the doubts. i can't explain how. it's as though it was never there! it was a monday night. i started reciting and reciting and memorizing and reciting and in TWO HOURS i memorized everything, SEASONED with confidence and ready to give my best
not for ME
not for MISS CHEE
not for my MOM
but for GOD!

i woke up on wednesday morning and prayed. on the way to school, i prayed. and God kinda told me ' why not be the first to go up the stage?'. i thought..." nahhhhh........that would be suicidal"
i went for prayer group and evryone prayed for me,Zhu and Rach.
i was late for drawing lots. and i got 14th. THE LAST. BUT
BUT
BUT
BUT
pui yee came up to me and said the most SURPRISING THING to me that morning
pui yee : DAD AHH ! You wanna change number with me?
samjo : har? what number? o.O?
pui yee : *shows number* ONE !
samjo : OHKAY !!

without a second thought i said ohkay. without a second thought. i must've been CRAZY ! i was supposed to be shaking like a leaf but.. surprisingly... i didn't. i wasn't THAT nervous. =D and do you see the connection? God's calling to be first and in the end, i did get to be the first.

coincidence?
i don't think so.

i prayed and prayed until sissy SARAS called my name and i went up the stage. and i looked at the audience, my fellow colistrians. i froze. BUT again i heard God saying " don't be afraid. all these people look like tiny dots in blue. don't they?"
tiny dots
tiny dots
tiny dots
...............
HAHAH YAH THEY DO ! =D
so i carried on talking to the tiny blue dots and before i knew it, it was over. and i was
r.e.l.i.e.v.e.d.
impromptu.
terrible.
"NATIONAL SERVICE should be made COMPULSORY for all FITH FORMERS. What do you think?"
and i crapped about evrything and anything knowing i said something and not nothing.
*ting ting
i walked off the stage.


it was time to announce who the winners were and i walked to the back of the hall to sit with ED. knowing that i wouldn't get anything.
But guess what
i won third place.

@_@

and i'm glad that Ed was the first to hug me, congratulating me. ><

Congratz SAU CHENG and ZHU-EY for winning first and second placing ! you guys were AWESOME !!

THANK YOU KENNETH ! LK i said ILY so much for helping me with the script and for your fantastic catchy 'obama-phrases'! i got feedback that i sound very kenneth-ish up on stage ya know..... LOL. aren't you SO proooooud of me? =D

anyway, do you see the power of prayer? do you see how amazing God works? you may think that ' it's all just a mere coincidence...' but I SAY, NO ! it's real and it's God !

ILY GOD ! =DDD

Joleneee <3