In this lil' mind of mine.

kereta warna banana cantik kan ?

Thursday, August 6, 200910:25 PM

today, imma feel very random. so imma post random stuff. and these random stuff, are seriously random stuff that i've come across in my 'jolini folder'. Gawd knows what kind of rubbish are stored in there. @_@

DENISE SONG DON'T YOU THINK IT LOOKS SO FASCINATING? xDD *headshot
i think i got this from Kevin Pao. it's so freaking disturbing !! and i bet that's Kelvin's bike. *scratch

i think i also got this from Kevin Pao. LOL! some sick stuff we came across while acting like innocent kids in toysrus. *pffft innocent my foot.. xD

yea, i think these puppies were a shelf on top of the bunnies. @_@
fyi. it wasn't us who did it ! xD

OH LOOK! it's me and my fancy-fancy-mini-tiny-shiny-cute lil yellow car ! it costs about RM600 + if i'm not mistaken. HAHA! it's so freaaaking niceeeeeee!! it's MINEEEE ! xD

and according to kevin, i'll get a saman for driving a yellow car because it attracts too much attention.

policeman 1: eh eh tengok kat kereta banana tu! cantik kan? oisehhhh!
policeman 2: cantik kepala kau da! dia speed 'gitu laju, tak nampak ka?
conclusion : if i were to speed, hell ya i'll be the first to get noticed and the first to get a saman. T__T

at parking lot
policeman 1 : amboi, tengok kereta kuning ni. air liur meleleh dah!
policeman 2 : ya, dan si pemandu ni tak tau parking. kena saman teruk, memang air liur dia meleleh.
conclusion : if i were park like crap, hell ya i'll be the first to get noticed and the first to get a saman.

KEVIN'S CONCLUSION: yellow sports cars rawks! cause they'll always be the centre of attention. xDD

isn't that right, kevin? HAHA!

feeling random,
Joleneee <3

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where's the bliss ?

Monday, August 3, 20098:44 PM

i'm struggling with life. and spm isn't making it any easier for me.

alot has been happening for the past few weeks and everything seems to be a blur at the moment.
i can't get my stuff done because i'm drastically distracted by the most out-of-the-blue event in my life. but who cares. been out for lunch with lawrence, steph and genia for the past weeks and i had a great discussion with lawrence about a few interesting topics. however, we came to the part

what we want may be totally different from what God wants for us.

so true and it goes without saying. i'm torn between life.. and life. and i have to choose one. although it seems as though i have the choice of both.. but no, only one and i think i've made my choice and i'm not sure if God's wrath is going to burn me to the pits of hell.

uncle collin once told me
'if you were to be with him, a non-believer, it would be exactly like this. you are standing on top of a table and he is on the floor and you're holding each others hand. which one is easier, to pull him up the table or for him to pull you down from the table?'

someone smack me in the face for thinking that i have such brute strength to do it on my own. but i'm taking my chances. i have to try to win one more for Jesus. i have to try.

because no matter what. God's kingdom comes first.

and oh another issue.
i'm so sick and disgusted with myself. a hypocrite. i hate myself for that. i'm so sorry puiyee so sorry edwina. i'm so sorry God for being the biggest most stupidest stumbling block in my friends lives. and i do not know how to get things back to normal.

i guess this situation is like a broken vase. it's glued back with all the sorries but the cracks are still there, still visible. and it can never be as perfect or as beautiful as before. i feel so rotten for being so careless. i'm sorry.

i can't do recess revo. i dont fit to be a leader, to lead people into prayer to lead people into the word to lead people into anything... cause i myself, have disgraced God too much. too much. i'm sorry ming yen. forgive me cause.. i really can't.

distressed,
Joleneee <(

ps: at times like this, i really wish he is a christian. adakah kamu pernah merasai perasaan dukacita dan sukacita pada masa yang sama? T_T

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