christianity isn't through inheritance.

i know this is very.. out of the blues BUT i just have to let it out.
i was at cellgroup last night and.. i was thinking...that yea, christianity isn't through inheritance.
it's all about the self encounter with God. no other.
it's all about the grace of the Lord and the mercy He has given to us.

now, it wouldn't make much sense if we were to be born into a christian family and say that we are christians. that would make us christians by name. not by faith. christianity is a choice.
a choice given to us to make for ourselves.

and
no one.

yes, no one makes that decision for us.
we make the choice on our own.
i have made a decision to be a christian.
i could choose to drift away from God and be a free thinker.
to choose to think that christianity is just ONE of THOSE religions.
to choose to think that there really isn't a God out there. goodness, evolution seems to be more logical, no?
hah. there IS a God out there. and i had an encounter with that God. THE God. The alpha and omega. The beginning and the end.it was.. undescribable. it was however, without doubt, an encounter of grace. it was and will always be real ; these encounters. until i see him face to face at the Gates of heaven.

i understand that, by grace we are chosen by god. god chose us. God gave us the freedom to choose whether to follow him or to deny him.
and if we choose him, he'll promises us ever lasting life. eternity. a forever.

and if we don't, he wouldn't force us. ofcourse he wouldn't. he wouldn't take a pitch fork and throw us down to hell. he's a God of love. full of mercy. he will always try to free us,free us from the grasps of evil. free us from the torment that would soon dawn upon us on judgement day either through the believers or through personal encounters like Saul. (ACTS 9) if he could, he would save evry single soul on earth. for he has created us in his image. he wouldn want anyone to perish, anyone to burn for eternity. but as much as he wants us to be saved, he respects us, men, and gives us the freedom of choice. that, is without doubt,the grace of god.

i'm sorry if i annoy you with this post. i'm sorry if i have ticked off some sort of self destruct button in your brain to burn me to ashes.but i really want those.. those 'christians' out there, to think about this decision that god has given them. im sorry, but i feel that being a christian by name.. doesn't mean much. there isn't much depth. it's somehow.. so superficial. i have been there and i have done that. and i did not like it at all.please.. christians out there.. make a choice. be a christian based on the honesty of the heart. not based on the reason of 'inheritance'.

please do not use me.. as some sort of reflection of Christ. not that i'm denying him but. i'm still a long way from becoming like him.very far away. but i'm still trying. i will not give up. never. it's difficult to be a christian but i know that evrytime i fall, evrytimei make a blunder.. he's there to pick me up. he tells me to go on. and God never fails. i KNOW he never fails. because that is whyi'm still here.. a christian who has made a decision not too long ago to be a christian by faith and not by name, blogging about Himin this lil blog of mine. = )